Think.

Well...

It has been quite a while since I've written on this thing. To be quite honest with you, I forgot about it. I'm going to try to keep up with it more..it just seems to be a hard thing to do. I have stuff bottled up inside... expenses, thoughts, guys being jerks.. a struggle with weight. *SIGH*

Expenses.

I have been running behind on some bills. Paying bits and pieces throughout a two week period.. but they all get paid. I've recently decided to go to the doctor for what ever it is that's wrong with me. The day I decided what I was going to spend my christmas bonus on, which was a doctor visit, I found out I have to take 2 more classes and a Regent's Test at school before I can get any closer to getting my degree. I cried for a good 10 minutes or so, but Debbie helped me through it. I'll be talking to a counselor on Monday for whatever I need to do. Expenses will start looking up here after Thanksgiving.

Thoughts/Guys.

Sometimes I don't understand what it is that normal guys do not like about me. So far, I've been slightly "dissed" by these 2 people. But.. it's okay. I'm gonna stay single forever and just go to a sperm bank and get it handled when i want a kid. haha.

I'm struggling with weight. I've been eating rather healthy, yet I am still putting the weight on. Maybe i'm just pms-ing...I don't know. I'm tired of feeling ugly.

It sucks.

That's why girls become anorexic. It's hard to get the "Think" attitude out of your head once you're fully involved with Thinking Thin. So... from here on out I'm simply going to THINk.

It only makes sense.

Anyhow, I'm going to blowdry my hair. Then go to sleep.

Cheerios.